For the past year, I had come to believe that I had developed Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) - Adult onset. I seem to be constantly starting multiple tasks at one time, managing numerous activities simutaneously and sometimes forgetting various activities that I had planned to complete. This all came to a head one Sunday morning, when I managed to clean my entire house "before" leaving for church. Never mind the fact my husband and daughter had already gone to the car. I was on a mission to clean up! The fact that I actually did this in record time is even more disturbing.
During lunch, at work the following Monday, I shared with my coworkers that I thought I really needed Ritalin (medicine to treat my adult onset of ADHD). I continued to share how I repeatedly start new tasks before completing one, and end up completing them all simutaneously. I explained to them how my mind was racing, as I am consumed with thoughts of what happened yesterday, what is going to take place tomorrow, what needs to be completed right now and how much time I have to complete all of these tasks. By this time, I was raving on and on regarding how my mind was just on a roller coaster going extremely fast. One of the ladies, looked at me and said, "Girl, please! You don't need any Ritalin!" She said, "you're just a mommy!" All of your mommy senses are kicking in! You will be okay!! Really? Really? REALLY? I'm just a mommy? My mommy senses are kicking in? I was beginning to really embrace this and have fun through my imagination. Was I going to develop x-ray vision to see through the walls of my girls rooms? Are eyes forming in the back of my head? In times of crisis, would 3 more arms automatically sprout from my body to handle multiple tasks?
She said, "You are just a mommy!" YOU - WILL - BE - OKAY.....To myself, I was thinking, I do not feel okay. I feel like I am developing multiple personalities. One minute I am on the phone having an intelligent conversation and the next minute I am blurting out directions to McKenzie or KayCee. I feel like everything (tasks) are building up and when I start one, I must finished them all. But hey!....I am just a mommy and I will be okay. Until next time...Love yourself!